Have you seen that new facebook feature? The one where you can share a post from a year ago. I haven’t participated but smile or maybe even raise an eyebrow, and click the ‘thumbs up’ from time to time when I see friends posting their past memories.
And my analytical, pondering, and forever-curious mind asks the question: What’s different for them today than from a year ago?
Has anything changed?
Does anyone really change?
Have I changed?
So, out of curiosity, I went back in my prayer journal to a year ago to see what I had written.
May 25, 2015
Dear Lord, Thank You for the friendships, for kindness of others, for the beauty of others, for Your words, and for leading me away from people and events that are detrimental to me. I pray for peace, for a heart of forgiveness, and a heart completely turned to You as all I need. I pray for the silencing of ‘tapes’ (those critical negative thoughts) so I do not operate from a place of neediness for others to accept me, but completely accept who I am, who you made me to be, and that I am just as precious as the next person.
and measured it against today:
May 25, 2016
Dear God, I pray that today You show me how to be a blessing to others, how to forgive, how to deal with my envy and jealousy, how to break free of the same things I have been struggling with for years….In my mind I need to be different yet I also have to accept who I am.
Hmm…there’s a commonality here, a continual struggle that I bet if I looked back to my prayer journals beyond a year ago, the same words would be there-(help me) accept who I am.
The story I could tell myself is ‘Lynn, you haven’t changed. You’re still struggling with the same issues you were a year of more ago. Nothing has changed!”
Or the story I could tell myself is “Lynn, you may have the same prayer, the same struggles but you sure are not in the same place as you were a year ago. And even if you were, you would not be any less accepted and loved for His mercy never ends.”
Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever. Psalm 136:1
So, my friend, what story are you telling yourself?
Are you telling yourself a story of defeat?
Or are you telling yourself a story rooted in truth?
When you say, “I feel defeated,” God says, “I am with you.”
Disciples so often get into trouble; still God is there every time. Psalm 35:19 The Message
When you say, “I can’t,” God says, “I am with you.”
David continued to address Solomon: “Take charge! Take heart! Don’t be anxious or get discouraged. God, my God, is with you in this; he won’t walk off and leave you in the lurch. He’s at your side until every last detail is completed….1 Chronicles 28:20
When you say, “I don’t have what it takes,” God say, “I am with you.”
No need to panic over alarms or surprises,
or predictions that doomsday’s just around the corner,
Because God will be right there with you;
he’ll keep you safe and sound. Proverbs 3:26
Of course don’t know what I shall write in my prayer journal on May 25, 2017 but what I do know for sure is that in every struggle, in every detail and circumstances, He’s there keeping me safe and sound.
I just have to let Him be my story.
Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. Ephesians 2:10
What story are you going to believe today?