What story are you telling yourself?

 

mercy (35 of 1)

Have you seen that new facebook feature? The one where you can share a post from a year ago. I haven’t participated but smile or maybe even raise an eyebrow, and click the ‘thumbs up’ from time to time when I see friends posting their past memories.

And my analytical, pondering, and forever-curious mind asks the question: What’s different for them today than from a year ago?

Has anything changed?

Does anyone really change? 

Have I changed?

So, out of curiosity, I went back in my prayer journal to a year ago to see what I had written.

May 25, 2015

Dear Lord, Thank You for the friendships, for kindness of others, for the beauty of others, for Your words, and for leading me away from people and events that are detrimental to me. I pray for peace, for a heart of forgiveness, and a heart completely turned to You as all I need. I pray for the silencing of ‘tapes’ (those critical negative thoughts) so I do not operate from a place of neediness for others to accept me, but completely accept who I am, who you made me to be, and that I am just as precious as the next person. 

and measured it against today:

May 25, 2016

Dear God, I pray that today You show me how to be a blessing to others, how to forgive, how to deal with my envy and jealousy, how to break free of the same things I have been struggling with for years….In my mind I need to be different yet I also have to accept who I am.

Hmm…there’s a commonality here, a continual struggle that I bet if I looked back to my prayer journals beyond a year ago, the same words would be there-(help me) accept who I am.

The story I could tell myself is ‘Lynn, you haven’t changed. You’re still struggling with the same issues you were a year of more ago. Nothing has changed!”

Or the story I could tell myself is “Lynn, you may have the same prayer, the same struggles but you sure are not in the same place as you were a year ago. And even if you were, you would not be any less accepted and loved for His mercy never ends.”

Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever. Psalm 136:1

So, my friend, what story are you telling yourself? 

Are you telling yourself a story of defeat?

Or are you telling yourself a story rooted in truth?

When you say, “I feel defeated,” God says, “I am with you.”

 Disciples so often get into trouble; still God is there every time. Psalm 35:19 The Message

When you say, “I can’t,” God says, “I am with you.”

David continued to address Solomon: “Take charge! Take heart! Don’t be anxious or get discouraged. God, my God, is with you in this; he won’t walk off and leave you in the lurch. He’s at your side until every last detail is completed….1 Chronicles 28:20

When you say, “I don’t have what it takes,” God say, “I am with you.”

No need to panic over alarms or surprises,
    or predictions that doomsday’s just around the corner,
Because God will be right there with you;
    he’ll keep you safe and sound. Proverbs 3:26

Of course don’t know what I shall write in my prayer journal on May 25, 2017 but what I do know for sure is that in every struggle, in every detail and circumstances, He’s there keeping me safe and sound.

I just have to let Him be my story. 

Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. Ephesians 2:10

What story are you going to believe today?

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21 thoughts on “What story are you telling yourself?

  1. Hi Lynn,
    I’ve been thinking about you and the fires in your area and hoped that all was well with you! I so relate to your post today because I often feel as if I’m not making much progress. Loved that you shared your thoughts from a year ago and today and came to the conclusion that you are letting God be your story and accept who you are — what a beautiful message this is!

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    1. Hi Val, yes the fire situation in Fort McMurray has calmed down and the evacuees shall be going home soon. However, there is a large mess to clean up as I understand. And the area still desperately needs rain! I get how it feels to feel like we are not making progress! In the worlds standards, progress tends to measured by what is showing up outside of us. But what if it is just that feeling of peace we have within that ‘measures’ our progress instead? ” And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Phil 4:7 Have a peace-filled day!

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  2. I really love this, Lynn. I needed to be reminded of it. I have a problem with accepting myself, too. Sometimes as I think back I wonder if I have progressed at all. It seems my default mode is the negative story. But God is patient with me. I have to remember as you say that even if it’s still the same, God never loves or accepts us less because His mercy never ends. “I just have to let Him be my story.” Amen! Thank you for sending me hope today. Blessings and hugs to you!

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    1. Trudy, you are an absolute masterpiece! And He is doing such great work through you! I know I am learning to empty myself of my ‘should be’s’ so I can get myself out of my way so He can let Himself in and truly be my center. In the meantime, we can’t be hard on ourselves as He does love you right where you are. Blessings and hugs back to you!

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    1. Thank you Trudy! Yes, I did update. It’s still a work in progress and have many ideas to implement, God willing! That’s what writers/artist do, don’t they? Just keep editing, and editing, and editing..:)

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  3. Beautiful, Lynn, and so encouraging. You are not alone in those recurring struggles. It is so powerful to keep pouring out our insecurities (Psalm 62:8 Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.) and to allow God into them, to break them with His Word of truth…We have an accuser who feeds us lies and who is still trying to cripple us with lies we came to believe as a child…but we also have the Power of God’s Word and Spirit.

    I’m slowly learning to let God search my heart for the root of these lies…in some cases this has freed me from their hold…but there’s always more to go…a daily battle, isn’t it?

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      1. Amen! Yes, victory is our Lord’s. I’m learning for me that the “pouring out” has to happen first…otherwise I’m clothing God’s Truth in my own weakness, rather than God’s strength…and then I can repeat those truths as much as I like, but they don’t help because I haven’t yet confessed to what’s holding me to the lies…that’s my biggest battle though (because I’m a recovering control freak and like to think I’m strong, when I’m not!).

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  4. Thank you, Lynn, for these wise words. As always, you help me focus on what’s real and eternal: God’s constant love and help. I often get into despair, thinking I’ve not grown a bit since I walked into God’s arms 50 some years ago. But I know that’s a lie. He is changing me from glory to glory every day, even if I don’t see it.

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  5. Oh Lynn, what a beautiful and encouraging reminder for me and for us all! I totally get this. Same struggles and challenges- different year! lol I’m so grateful God is always working through me and in me despite my consistent failings and falterings! I might be stuck in places, but He is always sure to use our gifts and what we give to HIM, in new and creative ways.

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  6. I love this… a story rooted in truth is the one I want to tell myself! There are days that seem steeped in defeat, but maybe the big change for me is that those days become farther and farther apart? Thank you for this encouraging message.

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  7. Man, can I relate to this post! I feel this way often, “Lord have I changed,” I ask myself as I too struggle with same things over and over again. So encouraging, and a great and healthy shift in how we should see ourselves in Christ!

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