(Today’s post, I’m linking up with Kate Motaung’s Five Minute Friday. Each week a word prompt is given and you have 5 minutes to write a post, no editing, no over-thinking, just free writing. This week’s prompt is Define).
I’m off schedule this week. My Polestar Day Timer with it’s columns of work, appointments, and personal, is not really exceptionally filled-in, yet many of the penciled descriptions of items to be completed, are left unchecked.
If one was to look at my schedule, one might define it as “open” or “balanced” or maybe even “incomplete.”
Then why, only a few days ago, did I feel this heaviness in my chest as if pressured by a hand pushing, a hand much larger than mine that I couldn’t push away?
It hurt to breathe.
Even though my schedule looked open on paper, deadlines loomed over me like a cloud about to burst on my picnic. Assignments due, work appointments, inventory to make for an upcoming art show, content to be given to my designer for two new projects, family commitments, dishwasher to unload, income taxes….
And even though I dislike the definition as much prefer “full”, the word “busy” kept flashing in my mind like an irritating advertisement.
I’ve heard busy defined as “Being Under Satan’s Yoke.” And I didn’t want to be under THAT yoke.
But then one of the first verses I ever learned replaced that irritating advertisement.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Matthew 11:29
His word defining my fullness, I begin to breathe easier.
Yes, I can define my schedule as full, and always find rest for my soul with the One who is gentle and humble in heart.