Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is His faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23
“I’ve been making major decisions on my own for 20 years now. Why am I so fearful right now that I might be forgetting something? Maybe even making this situation worse?” I pulled my knees up to my chest, stared at my phone pocketed in the white duvet of my bed, it’s speaker icon highlighted.
I had just finished a week where nights were sleepless tossing, and the days hours were dealing with the aftermath of a theft that had me gripped in a fragile vulnerability.
A fragile vulnerability that had left me awake with worry, fear and aloneness.
Worry that more misfortune was to come; fear that I may have forgotten to do something to get the situation under control; and feeling alone in dealing with it all, alone.
Later, my phone off and silent, I found myself drawn to open my Book to Psalms, resting on David’s story when he fled Jerusalem, from his son Absalom and his men.
But you Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high. I call out to the Lord, and he answers me from his holy mountain. Psalm 3:3-4
Even though David was fleeing for his life, and all seemed to be going wrong for him, he lifted his head high, and called out to the Lord in confidence that God was still with him.
I lie down and sleep, I wake again, because the Lord sustains me. I will not fear though ten thousands assail me on every side. Psalm 3:5-6
Even with an army gathering, and his son rebelling against him, David chose not to fear and slept peacefully with the assurance that God was in control.
He did not worry or fear, give into the overwhelming feelings that can come when everything seems to be going wrong. Instead, he rested at night in the assurance of God’s promise of being a ‘shield around me’, always.
He rested in the knowing He was never alone in His battles.
He rested in the knowing of God’s unfailing love, that sustains and flows from Him no matter the circumstances.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life. Rescue me from my enemies, Lord, for I hide myself in you. Teach me to do your will, for you are God; may your good Spirit lead me on ground level. Psalm 143:8-10
May you know this Valentine’s Day, my friend, that nothing can overwhelm or consume God’s love for you. No circumstances is bigger than the One whose compassion and faithfulness is yours, as His beloved.
“You are altogether beautiful my darling, beautiful in every way.” Song of Songs 4:7