A welcome inconvenience

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I step to open my bedroom closet doors and trip, again, over the television cable cord that runs across the carpet. A cord that was never there until just a week or two ago when life got interrupted. A cord that has made peace and strife simultaneously.

Peace in having the television not in my living room, even it meant running a long cord from the only cable outlet in the upper level of my home, across a hallway and into a bedroom my son is occupying. Strife in having to deal with a long cable cord running from my bedroom, through a hallway and into a bedroom that turned into a grandchildren’s playroom years ago, but now occupied by my adult son.

I feel the inner turmoil of resentment rising up through clenched stomach muscles and then finally released in hands scrambling to get the cord unscrewed from it’s house in the wall.

And then I march a few steps into the hallway and chuck it, the cord landing in the dark room where my adult son is currently still sleeping. A room he only recently began to occupy when his last  roommate situation dissolved.

I turn away from the clothes covered floor, and from the television mounted on a bureau that once was with pictures and grandchildren’s toys. And slam the door.

Hard.

Not one of my finer moments.

Seconds later standing in front of my open bedroom closet, free now of any obstacles to trip over, I take a deep breath. Blow it out. Feel the guilt sink in over losing my patience over something so small.

Life has been interrupted. And I’m tripping over the inconvenience.

But he is safe.  Continue reading “A welcome inconvenience”

A Promise

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Psalm 147:3

 He heals the brokenhearted
    and binds up their wounds.

We walk through the arid pavilion, cobble stones under our feet and sun rays from the glass windows soaking warmth over us. Various species of flowers and shrubs line our path, splashes of chrysanthemum  pink, cactus green, and purple lily touching our eyes. The air is sweet, still and fragrant, but I am not sure what it is I smell. I do know that even though it is a chaos of many scents, I am at peace.

He has led me again, to a place of healing.

Just hours before, anxious and frustrated, I’d followed my friend to the restaurant table. As our waitress layed menus in front of us, I shrugged my heavy coat off, hung it on the back of the chair, and then sat down, thoughts spinning of unread emails, unheard voice-mails, and disappointment of another promise gone.

I force a smile to my friend. “How are you?”

He lifts his water glass, takes a sip, his blue bell eyes searching, locked with mine in care, in friendship, in kindness.

And I want to look away from this display of gentleness.

Resist this friendship.

Not surrender to this kindness.

My mind flickers to a memory. A time of tears, in my car, on a rural highway, alone. In a hurtful time, in a situation I needed to let go of. A situation that brought moment gratification, filled my need for human comfort, but left me broken, ashamed, and soul wounded.

How could I have slipped so far? Continue reading “A Promise”

You are loved

 

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Christian-Coaching-Week-Official-Participant-Logo-2016-smIn celebration of Christian Coaching Week (February 14-20, 2016) I thought I’d share one of my favourite activities I like to do during my Soul Formation Retreats.

Lectio Divina

Lectio Divina is latin for divine or sacred reading. It is an approach to scripture to let go of our agenda, enter into an intimate space with His word, and open ourselves up to what God wants to say to us.

First we Prepare by coming present to our moment, paying attention through our senses of sight, smell, hearing, and feelings. And then we take a deep breath in and on our breath out we can show our willingness to hear from God with the prayer, “Speak Lord, for your servant is listening.”

Then we Read our passage of scripture three times. The first time out loud, if we can. And then silently. And we ask, “Is there a particular word or phrase God is directing me to?” We underline, circle or journal those words.

Then we Reflect, asking God “What is in my life right now that needs to hear this word, this phrase?” And stay still. Stay silent as we  explore our thoughts, perceptions, and feelings.

And lastly, we Respond by entering into a personal dialogue with God, letting our words and prayer flow freely from us. We may  write down these words or prayers, or continue in communion with Him, as we are. We ask, “Is there a word He wants me to know? A call to action He wants me to take?”

Have you ever had an idea, a goal, a dream and then your mind fills with thoughts like:

  1. I’m not smart enough.
  2. I can’t do that-I’m just a mom, or I don’t have my college degree, or no one likes me, or __________________ (you fill in the blank)
  3. I’ve made way too many mistakes in my past
  4. I tried it before and failed
  5. I’m just not good enough

Do you know that God frequently does not call those who know what they are doing? Instead, He equips those who are called. TWEET THIS

Now the God of peace, who brought up from the dead the great Shepherd of the sheep through the blood of the eternal covenant, even Jesus our Lord, equip you in every good thing to do His will, working in us that which is pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be the glory forever and ever. Amen.

Hebrews 13:20-21

Our thoughts come from three places:

  1. God
  2. Ourselves
  3. Satan

We know when our thoughts reflect the truth of us when our words line up with God’s word. In this world we will always have struggle, including in our thought life. But we can OVERCOME.

No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us. Romans 8:37

And even though we may have negative thoughts, we can overcome them with the truth of how God sees us, our identity in Christ, and take action from HIS truth. 

Today I invite you to Lectio Divina, to listen to our Father’s Love Letter. What word or phrase does God want you to know, want you to believe is the truth of you, and how He sees you?

I also have included a PDF file of The Father’s Love Letter you can download and print, and display someplace daily to read out loud, solidifying who you are in Christ.

(Download PDF of Father’s Love Letter by clicking My Child)

Whether you can spend this time now in Lectio Divina, or maybe just take a breathing moment and listen to The Father’s Love Letter to you, I am happy you are here knowing that God is leading, every step of your way.

 

Love, Lynn

PS. If you feel comfortable, please share what impacted you when listening, reading, reflecting and responding to His word today.  I’d love to encourage you in the phrase or one word God has brought to your mind and heart.