Thank You for just BEING You

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“I’m just so grateful for how great my God is, for my room that I have here. I just pray someone doesn’t pull the fire alarm again tonight,” she says, wrapping her pink-flowered terry robe around her tighter.

There’s a murmur of agreement that comes from the other ladies at the table. Someone else begins to speak, to share what they are thankful for, but I am still fixed on the one who just spoke. With long fingers she gathers her dark hair, threaded with silver, and tucks it into the collar of her robe. Her eyes are deep brown, and seen many things I have never seen, and most likely will never see.

Earlier she spoke of a trial she’d endured this week, a temptation she’d overcome, a judgement placed against her, a struggle she’d been dealing with most of her life, and a child-hood memory on the reserve with her father.

Tears formed in the corner of her eyes when she spoke of her son who lives many miles away, on the west coast.

She misses him very much.

Yet, this woman, who’s in the last quarter century of her life, with few clothes and little resources that only allow her to live in an accommodation centre that houses other women, is ever so grateful for God.  For God just being God.

And I’m humbled.

My gratitude list can be long of things like coffee, my car, my healthy kids, my vacations, my money in the bank, my working mind and body, an answered prayer…

But when have I just been thankful to God for just being God?

In the book of James, James tells us, “Listen, my dear brothers and sisters, Has not God chosen those who are poor in the eyes of the world to be rich in faith and to inherit the kingdom he promised those who love him?” 2:5

This woman, this woman who wraps herself in a terry robe to stay warm understands what faith is. There is no barrier of things, of world riches that block her with pride or idolatry. She is rich in faith, grateful for her wonderful God for just being God–her strength and her redeemer; her rock and her salvation.

The God that even though the steps she takes are without many comforts of worldly goods and may even have disaster or ruin, she is confident is by her side and protecting her.

Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtake the wicked, for the Lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being snared. Prov. 3:35

Later as I slip on my thermal winter coat, step into my car, start the engine and feel heat on my bare hands, I thank God for heated steering wheels. And pause, then find myself whispering this simple prayer.

I do thank you for all my comforts and blessings Lord, but more than anything I just want to thank you for being here with me, for being in my life, and loving me. The best thing about my life is you….

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Learning to listen to His voice

As I started to gather my thoughts on what my post would be this week, I felt nudge to listen to a podcast, which then directed me to Psalm 46. And then as I read Psalm 46, and as I started to format the idea of a writing around Psalm 46, I heard, “Let My words be your words.”  I’m not sure why, but I’m following the Spirit’s prompting…and my hope is this is for you. 

God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble.

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Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.

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There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fall

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God will help her at break of day.  Nations are in an uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts.

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The Lord Almighty is with us, the God of Jacob is our fortress.  Continue reading “Learning to listen to His voice”

A welcome inconvenience

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I step to open my bedroom closet doors and trip, again, over the television cable cord that runs across the carpet. A cord that was never there until just a week or two ago when life got interrupted. A cord that has made peace and strife simultaneously.

Peace in having the television not in my living room, even it meant running a long cord from the only cable outlet in the upper level of my home, across a hallway and into a bedroom my son is occupying. Strife in having to deal with a long cable cord running from my bedroom, through a hallway and into a bedroom that turned into a grandchildren’s playroom years ago, but now occupied by my adult son.

I feel the inner turmoil of resentment rising up through clenched stomach muscles and then finally released in hands scrambling to get the cord unscrewed from it’s house in the wall.

And then I march a few steps into the hallway and chuck it, the cord landing in the dark room where my adult son is currently still sleeping. A room he only recently began to occupy when his last  roommate situation dissolved.

I turn away from the clothes covered floor, and from the television mounted on a bureau that once was with pictures and grandchildren’s toys. And slam the door.

Hard.

Not one of my finer moments.

Seconds later standing in front of my open bedroom closet, free now of any obstacles to trip over, I take a deep breath. Blow it out. Feel the guilt sink in over losing my patience over something so small.

Life has been interrupted. And I’m tripping over the inconvenience.

But he is safe.  Continue reading “A welcome inconvenience”

Success, Thankfulness and Joy

It’s almost the end of the first week of January. And, although I do not want to put a lot of pressure on myself so soon, it is a week that begins to set the tone, the momentum for achieving intentions and goals.

It is the week of reflecting on the past year, measuring what I did accomplish and what I may have let slide away.

Sometimes though, what we slide away from does not mean we did not achieve the goal. It just means our values may be higher elsewhere.

For example, my goal in the Fitness category was to work out at my local gym twice per week. I did not achieve this. Yet, in my Family category I surpassed my goal of spending more time with my grandchildren by taking my granddaughter skating more than I planned.

An achievement I say! And time with my children and grandchildren is high on my value list.

So this year I readjusted goals in other areas to make sure I have set myself up for success achieving my  Family and Fitness goals.

I can never say enough of how important it is to focus on what we have achieved. This sets us in a mindset  of success, and even HOPE, as we keep moving toward our dreams one step at a time.

I believe too, that our environment is important to our creativity. Continue reading “Success, Thankfulness and Joy”